The College Drive.

AJ’s 2nd Birthday

The College Drive.

by Alienhippy

As I drop you off on the college drive

An image I have of you, when you were only two

You were all I had in this world

I would bring you everyday

To play at the nursery

In this place of education

You had nightmares about Baked Beans

I had dreams, that I could better myself

And give you more

Today

I watch you walk through those gates

In your checked shirt and baggy jeans

With your dreams

And a whole lot of living to do

I feel my whole stomach turn

I yearn to hold your hand

I swallow back the tears and my fears

For you

As you walk alone

Into the unknown

“He’s only going to college!”

I tell myself….. over and over and over

I drive home, the tears roll down my face

I look over to the place

Where your baby car seat used to sit

I smile a bit as your smile plays from memory

“Beep Beep, Mommy, Beep Beep!” you say

My little boy with his toy steering wheel

I feel…. pride, joy, sick and overwhelmed

All at the same time

I pull over

“I can cry, I know I can, I have raised a fine young man”

It’s like your first day in reception all over again

I went home and cried beside your toys on the living room floor

“What for…?”

You will understand, when you take the hand

Of your newborn

Only today

I have to let you go……..all by your Jack Jones

You don’t see my reluctance

I hide it with a smile

And for a while I watch you hesitate

Then you go, through the gate

And down the college drive

Head held high

I ask why? Time goes so fast

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8 thoughts on “The College Drive.

  1. A very beautiful poem. It brought a lump to my throat.
    Watching our kids grow up, and all the irreversible changes that that entails,
    brings such a mix of joy for their progress as well as sadness for what can never be again.
    Yes, smiles and tears.

    And that is such a nice picture of AJ. He reminds me of my oldest grandson who turned two a few weeks ago.

    And time does go sooo fast!

    • Thanks lovely Bruce,
      I was a real mess when I wrote this poem. I had to pull over and I was nearly sick crying. I wrote it to distract myself from feeling SO overwhelmed.
      I still struggle to read it, I get to this bit and then I start crying again with all my visuals….
      I smile a bit as your smile plays from memory
      “Beep Beep, Mommy, Beep Beep!” you say
      My little boy with his toy steering wheel
      Love and hugs my friend.
      Lisa. xx 🙂

  2. This has made me cry. It’s a time when you had to let go and it is so very hard. What a lovely Son you have and Daughter of course. I am so very proud of you all. Love you xxxx

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