Watching from the sidelines

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Watching from the sidelines

by Alienhippy

“Life’s not a spectator sport!”

Yet I sit at the sideline and wait

Watching the games commencing

Seeking to understand this fate

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“Take the bull by the horns!”

Believe in who you are today

I’m always stepping out on my own

For help I continually pray

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“Cross that bridge when you come to it!”

Seems good advice, clear in my head

But without some social preparation

Who I am, how I feel, remains unsaid

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“Think outside of the box!”

But that is ALL I ever do

My brain loops at sonic speed

To work out what is real, what is true

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“Step back and see the bigger picture!”

Then I will see what went wrong

I see in tangents with an Autistic mind

It’s the details that are singing my song

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“Wonderfully Wired, created to be me!”

I wish that the players would just stop and see

That they are important and play a big part

If they love and accept me, that love warms my heart

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FROG…HA HA BONK!

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FROG…HA HA BONK!

by Alienhippy

Fredrick the FROG sits on the shelf above my prayer chair

He has a few friends that sit at his side for his needs they really care

He contemplates peace and finding a way to fill his life with hope

He’s a funny old FROG, listening for God and finding new ways to cope

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Too many times, he has been made to feel sad

As the seeds of fear have been planted

He hates feeling alone even when he’s at home

Love and acceptance, he’s always wanted

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So he sits and he prays and hopes for better days

Filled with love and laughter and friends

He’s waiting on God that funny little FROG

As the tears help his fears to end

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Fully.Rely.On.God my Mom used to say

You need to trust when you sit and pray

God loves you more than you’ll even know

Fully.Rely.On.God and you’ll spiritually grow

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So I’m praying and crying and hating these fears

Planted and dripped in my brain over years

Not knowing the truth from these feelings I feel

It’s just “False Evidence Appearing Real”

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Sometimes I have to get hit on the head

To realise my thoughts are misguided and led

A FROG falls off a shelf, God’s love He shares

Showing me just how much He cares

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Ha ha…Bonk, on my head! YES… I was hit by a FROG

Spiritually knocking some sense in from God

I don’t have to listen to things that aren’t kind

Or to those who will plant seeds of doubt in my mind

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GOD IS LOVE, and His love builds me up

I’m facing my fears and drinking this cup

Listening to negative is not good for my health

A friend is a gift I can give to myself

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Quotes:

“A friend is a gift you give yourself.”

~Robert Louis Stevenson

“Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.”

~Edna Buchanan

“Friends are God’s way of apologizing for your family.”
~ Dr Wayne W. Dyer, The Power of Intention:


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What goes HA HA BONK…???

An Alienhippy laughing her head off! ….LMHO (I find it funny…hehehe)

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An old video from my childhood to go with my poem

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It is done!

It is done!

by Alienhippy

I can’t stop the loops, why do I listen to such words?

How can I change the way they feel inside my mind

They grip and tear my heavy heart, such pain

Where can I find my smiling dance again

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Please hold back your words

To you they only spark a feeling of release

Their poison is released, doubts built over years

I cannot shift these tears, these fears you have unleashed

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Please ponder on my mind and be more kind

Remember that your words leave your mouth, then set up house

Inside my head, all you have said and my heart is pained

I have to go, be in the still, rest in His arms and hear His will

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You’ve triggered my rejection and the feeling of alone

I can go home and find the TRUTH, and learn to TRUST again

Stop with your words, I will not listen anymore

It is done!

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NOTE: This poem was not finished when I published it. If you want to read the last part of this poem please follow this link… “It is done!”… was not finished.

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God will guide the stone

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God will guide the stone

by Alienhippy

Come close my little one, for you I sent my Son

And I know sometimes it’s hard to trust in me

But I will never leave, I send comfort, I don’t deceive

You have within you my truth to set you free.

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Don’t listen to the lies, my word has made you wise

So you can fight, not let the enemy win

The victory I will send, I am your Father and your friend

I gave my Son, He took away your sin

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Just trust I’ll guide the stone, and bring you safely home

Your Goliath to me is just a grain of sand

Be like David sing me psalms, I will deliver you from all harm

I have all your days within my very hand

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I don a mask for every day

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I don a mask for every day

by Alienhippy

I don a mask for every day

Slip out the door my head will pray

I speak the words my heart will hear

Protect me Lord from all this fear

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As I’m walking through this day

Give me ears for what you say

With faith my hope will always please

You’ll bring these loops down to their knee

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These masks can go and I can be

Wonderfully Wired created to be me

Seeing through your eyes, born unique

Living in acceptance gratefully I seek

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Your Son will help me fully live

Not for myself but learning to give

And in my life your love will flow

My feet and heart will gladly go

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To every corner that’s in darkness

Tell my story share this gladness

You came to me to heal my pain

In your love, I trust love again

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Just like a child without restrictions

No tortured confines, obsessive addictions

But giving freely and believing in you

To guide my life and get me through

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Internalise

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Internalise

by Alienhippy

Can you pick me out the crowd?

I’m not loud

I don’t shout, look any different

But inside I hide

From all that is me.

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Can you see which one I am?

For a while

I will smile, just like the rest

But the test is

Do I understand why?

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I can fit in with what is, ‘the norm’

Over time I have learnt to conform

I’ll say I’m fine, if you think to ask

Truth being told

I am wearing a mask.

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Butterfly Breeze

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Butterfly Breeze (free flow poetry)

by Alienhippy

Colour drawn spiralling

Twisting into no thoughts

Twirling and spinning into pretty

NOTHINGNESS… just peace

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A relaxed mind of

Butterfly dreams

And faraway places

That only my spirit can reach

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Don’t go away imagination

Please don’t leave me

Take me with you

To your happy place

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Where Butterflies kiss sweetly

And hurt does not exist

Where colour and sound

Replace words and confusion

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Take me away on your spectral wings

Carry me on your gentle breath

So I can be free, lost in a place of magical beauty

Where dreams are reality, and tears have no pain

Free flow thoughts while “Listening through the Loops”

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Shall I take the cure pill?

Shall I take the cure pill

by Alienhippy

They’ve invented a new tablet, to take my quirks away

It will cure me of my ASD and help me fit today

I’ll be able to understand what it is that I can gain

By being part of what goes on, no-longer live this pain

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They are giving out this pill tomorrow, I’d better get in line

It might be the answer to the prayers I’ve prayed so many times

I’ll be able to cope with noisy rooms and people will talk to me

I’ll be different from the way I’m made and then I’ll truly see

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What it is to just be normal and not an obsessive freak

To be seen as just intelligent, and not an eccentric geek

To go into a party and cope with conversation

Be normal, accepted, understood, a manufactured creation

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Now, I’ve been thinking hard on this and if I take that pill

I’m telling God that He is wrong and I refuse His will

I’m telling Him that He has made a mistake in what He’s done

That His Handiwork is not good enough, the battle isn’t won

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I know God doesn’t make mistakes, I’m fearfully and wonderfully made

He sent His Son to die for me, He has already been betrayed

A Brother/friend He loved so much, but He knew it was meant to be

Just like my quirks and fears and pain are all to set me free

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Maybe I will not see it here, but in this world I don’t belong

I do not fit, I might be odd, but to God there’s nothing wrong

With how I’m wired or who I am, I’m unique and will give Him glory

Each day is hard but together with God, I’ll keep looking at Jesus’ story

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 I am perfectly formed, created as His, protected by Angels above

One day I’ll go home and look in His eyes, surrounded in His perfect Love.

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Poem…Please be nice!

by Alienhippy

It’s so hard to see or hear words that are not kind

It does something inside my dyslexic mind

It stops me from reading and makes me feel sick

I’m so glad that praying seems to do the trick

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I take it to God and He takes it from me

He gave me dyslexia so I wouldn’t see

A lot of the bad stuff that my aspie can’t take

It causes confusion and keeps me awake

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So when I read blogs and my eyes start to stress

I realise what I’m reading, may cause me some mess

In my aspie brain, when later on it starts filtering

So as interesting as it maybe, to God I am listening

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He gave me this blessing, that sometimes feels like a curse

But I know that without it, my life would be worse

My aspie brain never stops, and I care very deeply

I’m grateful for my weakness, because it helps me to see

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That we are all very different, in our own unique ways

We all have to struggle, to be happy in our days

God loves us all equally, and favourites… He has none

Please be kind to each other, and accept everyone

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Forgiven

Forgiven

by Alienhippy

My precious child stop running wild

This chaos I’ll protect you from

Look to me, seek my face

You are my gentle one

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You hurt much deeper than most do

My quiet voice will call to you

Know I’ll always love you dearly

Just Be Still and listen calmly

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This world has got its own agenda

I know this plan is hard to bear

Set apart refined like silver

Just call to me and KNOW I’m there

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