Flower of gold

Photo taken by a friend

Photo taken by a friend

Flower of gold

by Alienhippy

Come hear my song of brightened delight

Bathed in this glory of radiant white

Alone I rise from this sea of doubt

Head held high yet the odd one out

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Gaze at my beauty I’m not like the rest

Gentle and sweet always giving my best

Rooted firmly and protected I stand

Forsaken in a crowd but safe in His hand

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Reaching heart, eyes open to the sky

Accepted in love not questioning why

Radiant in this glory my spirit runs free

Shining like a star and living to be me

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Swayed by the breeze I’ll bend not break

Alive and growing no longer playing fake

Unique by design this truth I confess

Created to be remarkable, different not less

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Escape from my spiral

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Escape from my spiral

by Alienhippy

Hollow calls beckon into the darkness of silence

My heart rips as soul is dragged into its empty cavern

A sealed fate of unenlightened despair

Bleeding me of my being, sucking at my energy

Stop your ways you creature of not knowing, you will not win

Stop with your lies you blackened beast, this cave has a way out

This inviting twilight, a glimpse, a glimmer of inbetween

Fragments of a memory will not hinder my voice

An awakened rapturous hold takes me better ways

The illumination of this inner call

So tenderly spoken, a loving whisper

Bringing me up out of my spiral, my twirling doom

Away from its gravitational pull on my mind

I have a voice and as my worth grows you weaken

I can fight you with words, heart words victorious

Your terrors are not my prison any more

Escape your fear, I am no child under tyrant’s restraint

Climbing heart, learning mind, lifted spirit

Levitated from your darkened crevice

I will not be silenced any longer, I will not be caged

I will live and breathe and speak and be

And, I will love

Even from the depths of my pit

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Love Light, Shine Bright

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Love Light, Shine Bright

by Alienhippy

Crushed heart? Mocked spirit? Hidden light?

Don’t go there gentle child

All lies upon lies that feed your mind

None of them truth but silent teases

Empty out these thoughts, those taunts

And breathe in them never more

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Cleansed in a sacrificial love

Your walk pleasing your heart is filled

Your soul lifted and daily bathed in grace

Shine and be all that you are

This slate has been washed clean

Now let there be a you in this world

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Do not doubt and hide your face

Wrapping yourself in invisible blacks

Instead let this love light shine so bright

Giving heart to those who pass

Let your light shine bright before you, before all

Seeing worth, knowing truth, giving hope

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And praise your Father in heaven

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Dancing with flames

Moses and the burning bush. by Deana Harvey

Dancing with flames

by Alienhippy

Captured by your dance

Translucent blue in flames

Colour mingled passion

A sunset through my veins

Such inner peace this spectral twirl

No heat, this freshness breathes

These dancing sparks of stillness

No sound this world deceives

Nesting heart of harmony

Tranquillity has her say

Now I shall lose this comfort

As my dreams walk into day

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Zechariah 13:9

I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, “They are my people,” and they will say, “The Lord is our God.”

The psychologist Carl Jung said that fire represents the process of psychological transformation. Just as the alchemists used fire to transform base metals into gold, so the symbol fire is the trigger for the inner transformation. It purges the decay of the past yet is also the giver of light and spiritual truth. It is the eternal flame in the temple of the soul. It is from the fire that the phoenix of hope rises. ~Hidden meaning of dreams

Fractal flame I created using Apophysis

Lover of ashes, JJ Heller

Mirror Tree Speaks

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Mirror Tree Speaks

by Alienhippy

Emptiness it screams, as the silhouettes of yesterday breach my tomorrow

The sheer expanse of melancholy illusion, scratching fingers of burning loss

Pain engulfs but does not belong, it is for another

Time and place unknown, it beckons… so enticing

So invited into the darkened shadows, they tantalise my stream

What is this aching void this fear of feeling and depth that I should let it in?

I stand strong and I breathe, knowing that I belong

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Growth, a season, a cycle, lapse reminiscence yet familiar

Forgotten then brought to life, vacuous memories now become fruit

Rooted I am in substance, as deep below as I am tall

In the shadows I stand and in my stillness I breathe

Light surrounds me, nurtures me, touching each glimpse of unknown

Within the core of my being I am fed, time shall pass, death brings new life

I stand strong and I breathe, knowing that I belong

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Cast away exhaustion, travail making room for the new

Joyfully dancing as each breath takes me forward

Firm yet supple, bend with trials and not break, humbly I bow

My way stands strong, creation accepted, it’s who I am

For a duration, I contribute to life in my fullness and my emptiness

I fall but from my deepness I will rebirth

I stand strong and I breathe, knowing that I belong

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I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be

(Psalm 139:14-15, NIV)

The Still Small Voice

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The Still Small Voice

by Alienhippy

I wish I wasn’t so intense

Because it causes so much stress

My thoughts and feelings pour from me

Then I’m left in one big mess

Not knowing if I’ve said too much

Or worded it the right way

I know I’m honest and speak my truth

But do I always have to say

What’s on my heart and in my head

Can’t I just not care instead

It seems to be the most popular way

But I guess today, I just need to pray

The still small voice I hear

Calms my fear

As tears roll down my face

I am comforted by His grace

My heart just needs to call

My heart just needs to call

by Alienhippy

Patiently I wait on words spoken to my heart

I listen through the loops and hear the still small voice

My heart yearns but my spirit calls peacefully

I feel raised from unknowing and set on a solid truth

That truth is I am loved unconditionally

An inner peace fills me and my heart sings

My lips have a new song of praise

Fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of the one I trust

I look into the heart of the one who gave His life

I know that He is the one I should always look to

Blessings are at my step as I follow His lead

When I fall I know he will always catch me

When I fail to trust and when I lose hope He remains

His gentle voice spurring me on

Holding me in his love, His light everlasting

Whispering soft reminders His hopeful, caring promises

He has no desire for sacrifice, but a willing heart

He just calls my name and wants my love

He has me in His heart and He is living in mine

So many do not see or feel this love

They feel that it is not real but I will stand in the love

I received this gift and will call out Jesus is Lord

When troubles rise and the waters are deep

His hand is upon me guiding and teaching

So patiently He is always loving

Helping me grow in all I do for Him

His plan for me is always better than mine

Bringing me ever nearer to the image He sees in me

Refining me from the inside starting in the heart

Always providing just what I need, I rest under His wing

Exposed and humbled I stand in His presence

Quickly I am covered by His grace and mercy

New every morning I am washed clean by His love

Accepted and loved, created in unique design

Crafted by the master’s hand

I am enough because He loves me

I can be loved because He loved first

I can love because He shows me the way

He will never leave me, I just need to call

Then…Be Still And Know

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Inspired while reading Psalm 40

Moment of expression

Moment of expression

by Alienhippy

Moment of expression

Sitting, writing no more time for hiding

Not finding the right words

Knowing they will flow

If only I let go and allow myself to be

Wanting to be real

Is this fear that’s taking hold?

This tightening I feel

Short breaths as I write

Fingers taping, rigid fright

Self forced exposure

Yet to write brings me closure

So many mixed thoughts

Frustrated feelings, emotions

Am I going to push through, be true?

Perfect love it drives out fear

Wipes away the pain and tears

These fears are of my yesterdays

Times when I did not know praise

Rejections from a time unloving

I know the truth, my spirit’s moving

Filling my life, my heart, my soul

Love never gives a fear based goal

That is those who love control

Just triggers, not really forms of stress

Living in light, it’s far less headmess

 I am loved

I know love

I give love

If rejection comes, it creates space

Living imperfection saved by grace

Times set in quiet, then brought out of my pit

I know this pattern, many times I’ve lived it

There is no rule to be pleasing to all

I’ll be joyful and at peace before God

Not bowing down making myself fit

I’ve played that game and now I’ve quit

Recreating self to a mould of another

Brother, sister, friend or lover

Appeasing other, yet denying me

My creation designed in love not seen

Growing from the inside

Eyes opened wide

Loved by the divine

In this space and time

Guided by His Spirit

Mind never stopping

But loving, loyal, kind

A self inflicted heartache

Processing my mind

Brought on by the not knowing

Multiplied in self rejection

And stewed in world seen failure

Am I truly living if I don’t let me out of the box?

Be brave, I am more than the cast of my past.

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This poem was inspired by a little wooden box I have on my coffee table. It has the serenity prayer engraved on the lid. I wrote it quickly and just shared the thoughts that came to me in my quiet time of pondering.

The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

–Reinhold Niebuhr

Following my Butterflies

Following my Butterflies

by Alienhippy

A silent breeze, honeysuckle captured

Songs of the blackbird dance in my soul

Flutters and flittering beneath my heart

Tears of the butterfly caressed made whole

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Flashes of velvet deep colours of joy

Peacefully bow the blossoming flowers

Sweet heart song, humming birds dashing

Nestled in slumbers for fairy tale hours

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Ride on the waves of lullaby dreams

Heroes and kisses, figments unseen

Dragons as keepers of secrets untold

Unicorn memories imagines unfold

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Sing and dance, open heart, wide-eyed

Alive in a tree house, spirited child

Known is a comforting love at my side

Swirling life waters of rivers so wild

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Take me away sweet butterfly breeze

Living in daydreams, fantasy sends

Times remembered now etched in my soul

Resting on branches with butterfly friends

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Girl with Aspergers

Girl with Aspergers

by Alienhippy

Did you walk through the trees?

Searching for the imaginary friends

That this world had taken from you

Did you call out their names?

Thinking they would return

They had gone to safety in the woods

Did you sit alone on a swing?

Praying for a friend

Who accepted you for you

The one you never had to hide from

Did you stare at the moon?

Ask if your friend would come soon

Then smile as you heard

A whisper inside saying,

“Yes my precious child be patient,

they are looking at the moon and waiting just like you are.”

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“The worst feeling isn’t being lonely.

It’s being forgotten by someone you could never forget.”

How true this is we love and give our hearts

They become part of us

We have no other way

We can’t switch people off

We can choose to live in love or not

But how amazing it is

When who we are is accepted and loved

What we give from our hearts

Is received, not rejected

Those gifts of friendship from God

Make all those prayers worthwhile

Little glimpses of heaven

Inside those special friends

That God handpicked for each of us.

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Thoughts inspired from a comment I left on this post,

Slumbered Dreams by ~Samantha Craft (Everyday Aspergers)

You can read more about why I wrote this poem by following the link below.

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“A place where I can be me!”