Only You

Only You

by Alienhippy

Only you Lord Jesus can fill this gaping hole

Dance around inside my heart, caress my very soul

You took away my sin, grace nailed it to the tree

You are my everything, your comfort sets me free

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Nothing can I do to deserve love so complete

I can come to you, lay my all at your feet

Knowing that you care for this life that I live

You will always love me, so my heart to you I give

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I don’t know where you’ll lead me, I trust in all your plans

When I’m up and when I’m down, I know I’m in your hands

I’ll just accept the love you give, and know that it’s a gift

And all the songs within my heart, to you my voice I lift

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This world is full of darkness, but you make darkness light

With you I face the future, you give me strength to fight

You hold my hand you wipe my tears, I know you always care

Whatever storm I go through, I know that you’ll be there

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You’ll give me everything I need, to get through trials I face

You’ll bring me safely home to you, protected in your grace

You forgive me when I lose my way, in all things that I do

So this will always be the call, to come Be Still with you

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Mirror Tree Speaks

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Mirror Tree Speaks

by Alienhippy

Emptiness it screams, as the silhouettes of yesterday breach my tomorrow

The sheer expanse of melancholy illusion, scratching fingers of burning loss

Pain engulfs but does not belong, it is for another

Time and place unknown, it beckons… so enticing

So invited into the darkened shadows, they tantalise my stream

What is this aching void this fear of feeling and depth that I should let it in?

I stand strong and I breathe, knowing that I belong

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Growth, a season, a cycle, lapse reminiscence yet familiar

Forgotten then brought to life, vacuous memories now become fruit

Rooted I am in substance, as deep below as I am tall

In the shadows I stand and in my stillness I breathe

Light surrounds me, nurtures me, touching each glimpse of unknown

Within the core of my being I am fed, time shall pass, death brings new life

I stand strong and I breathe, knowing that I belong

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Cast away exhaustion, travail making room for the new

Joyfully dancing as each breath takes me forward

Firm yet supple, bend with trials and not break, humbly I bow

My way stands strong, creation accepted, it’s who I am

For a duration, I contribute to life in my fullness and my emptiness

I fall but from my deepness I will rebirth

I stand strong and I breathe, knowing that I belong

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I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be

(Psalm 139:14-15, NIV)

Emotions let loose

Meltdown shutdown in paint

Emotions let loose

by Alienhippy

I.

Crushed crippled insides

Grafted piety erodes my soul

Attackers voice, loud accuser

Internal wrench of past pain

Constant battering of imaginings

A need of expression

Aching, craving, longing

II.

I yearn humbled seekers

Seekers of the still

Come comforter enter

My Hazenland of desperation

Another soul searcher to rest

Trapped in lonely wanderings

Tainted emptiness ever present

III.

Always teasing, taunting

Away you scars of venom

Cracking this mind to darkened want

Pressing, poking, pushing

Spiked corner of isolation

Spoken or swallowed?

Digested be these fearsome words

IV.

The unyielding nag of deception

Frantic and irrational verging on paranoia

Addicted to abusive mistakes

Patterns pressing deeper

Into this scarlet blood swelled abyss

Solitude, but not peace filled

An island of not knowing

V.

Too confused

Too loud, too bright,

Too obsessive, too demanding

Too passionate

Too sensual

Too many, too much, too much

Too much of everything

VI.

Explosive internal cravings

This heavy drain of guilt

Those judging eyes

They tell of my wretchedness

Or is it their own?

I cling to truth

Knowing I am enough

VII.

I know love

I am loved

He is love

I. how the religious can sometimes make me feel

II. yearning for spiritual connection and communication

III. my sin and fear, self judgement after being in a religious sect

IV. confusion caused by absorbing the emotions of others

V. how this world can sometimes make me feel

VI. how people can sometimes make me feel

VII. giving it all to God

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NOTE: Hazenland is an imaginary world, a place of escape and acceptance.

Internal transformation

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by Alienhippy

Be still my child and know I’m here I never leave your side

You are a chosen instrument now banish earthly pride

I am your God, your Father too, I’m not a distant source

Just listen humbly for my voice, and I will set your course

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Don’t settle for just fitting in a world that lives with sin

I know your heart is for me and I see the pain you’re in

It’s not how I created, this darkness cannot win

Love others the way I teach you, embrace my love within

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My peace I freely give you, if only you’d receive

Stop listening to impurity, it wounds, numbs and deceives

I did not call you Heavenward for external imitation

I sent my Son to die for you, internal transformation

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But you will only hear my voice when you stop chasing idols

I cannot love you anymore than to die pierced on these nails

So come to me receive my gift, my peace and eternal life

Stop punishing yourself with sin this world’s own constant strife

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Just take my hand my precious one and let us just Be Still

We’ll listen for the voice within and follow in His will

Let go…these shackles bind, surrender, accept, release

Breathing in the still small voice, the perfect voice of peace

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Watching from the sidelines

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by Alienhippy

“Life’s not a spectator sport!”

Yet I sit at the sideline and wait

Watching the games commencing

Seeking to understand this fate

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“Take the bull by the horns!”

Believe in who you are today

I’m always stepping out on my own

For help I continually pray

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“Cross that bridge when you come to it!”

Seems good advice, clear in my head

But without some social preparation

Who I am, how I feel, remains unsaid

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“Think outside of the box!”

But that is ALL I ever do

My brain loops at sonic speed

To work out what is real, what is true

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“Step back and see the bigger picture!”

Then I will see what went wrong

I see in tangents with an Autistic mind

It’s the details that are singing my song

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“Wonderfully Wired, created to be me!”

I wish that the players would just stop and see

That they are important and play a big part

If they love and accept me, that love warms my heart

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Deep in your arms

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by Alienhippy

You made me love in a deeper way

So I never seem to fit

I try so very, very hard

I hurt… I just want to quit

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I have this yearning in my soul

I long for my Spiritual connection

I come to you and feel more whole

This world is so full of rejection

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You’ve wired me in a special way

You created my every detail

I get broken inside and have to pray

Or every day I feel like I fail

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I go off alone and find my way home

To the comfort of being with you

Snuggled deep in your arms, away from all harms

Knowing your love, unconditional and true.

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One of my favourite songs

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FROG…HA HA BONK!

Fredrick the frog, image from Google

by Alienhippy

Fredrick the FROG sits on the shelf above my prayer chair

He has a few friends that sit at his side for his needs they really care

He contemplates peace and finding a way to fill his life with hope

He’s a funny old FROG, listening for God and finding new ways to cope

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Too many times, he has been made to feel sad

As the seeds of fear have been planted

He hates feeling alone even when he’s at home

Love and acceptance, he’s always wanted

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So he sits and he prays and hopes for better days

Filled with love and laughter and friends

He’s waiting on God that funny little FROG

As the tears help his fears to end

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Fully.Rely.On.God my Mom used to say

You need to trust when you sit and pray

God loves you more than you’ll even know

Fully.Rely.On.God and you’ll spiritually grow

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So I’m praying and crying and hating these fears

Planted and dripped in my brain over years

Not knowing the truth from these feelings I feel

It’s just “False Evidence Appearing Real”

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Sometimes I have to get hit on the head

To realise my thoughts are misguided and led

A FROG falls off a shelf, God’s love He shares

Showing me just how much He cares

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Ha ha…Bonk, on my head! YES… I was hit by a FROG

Spiritually knocking some sense in from God

I don’t have to listen to things that aren’t kind

Or to those who will plant seeds of doubt in my mind

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GOD IS LOVE, and His love builds me up

I’m facing my fears and drinking this cup

Listening to negative is not good for my health

A friend is a gift I can give to myself

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Quotes:

“A friend is a gift you give yourself.”

~Robert Louis Stevenson

“Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.”

~Edna Buchanan

“Friends are God’s way of apologizing for your family.”
~ Dr Wayne W. Dyer, The Power of Intention:

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What goes HA HA BONK…???

An Alienhippy laughing her head off! ….LMHO (I find it funny…hehehe)

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An old video from my childhood to go with my poem

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It is done!

by Alienhippy

I can’t stop the loops, why do I listen to such words?

How can I change the way they feel inside my mind

They grip and tear my heavy heart, such pain

Where can I find my smiling dance again

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Please hold back your words

To you they only spark a feeling of release

Their poison is released, doubts built over years

I cannot shift these tears, these fears you have unleashed

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Please ponder on my mind and be more kind

Remember that your words leave your mouth, then set up house

Inside my head, all you have said and my heart is pained

I have to go, be in the still, rest in His arms and hear His will

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You’ve triggered my rejection and the feeling of alone

I can go home and find the TRUTH, and learn to TRUST again

Stop with your words, I will not listen anymore

It is done!

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NOTE: This poem was not finished when I published it. If you want to read the last part of this poem please follow this link… “It is done!”… was not finished.

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God’s love

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by Alienhippy

God’s love reaching down from the Heavens

Capturing the hearts of His children

Opening wide their minds to new ideas

Teaching them to live and love again

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To move forward on His great adventure

Trusting that He will lead the way

Giving each day to the Lord for His purpose

Feeling the desire to love and to pray

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Holding fast to new beginnings

Sharing God’s love with those He brings

Feeling the passion to be ever near Him

Having a heart that will praise and sing

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I don a mask for every day

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by Alienhippy

I don a mask for every day

Slip out the door my head will pray

I speak the words my heart will hear

Protect me Lord from all this fear

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As I’m walking through this day

Give me ears for what you say

With faith my hope will always please

You’ll bring these loops down to their knee

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These masks can go and I can be

Wonderfully Wired created to be me

Seeing through your eyes, born unique

Living in acceptance gratefully I seek

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Your Son will help me fully live

Not for myself but learning to give

And in my life your love will flow

My feet and heart will gladly go

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To every corner that’s in darkness

Tell my story share this gladness

You came to me to heal my pain

In your love, I trust love again

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Just like a child without restrictions

No tortured confines, obsessive addictions

But giving freely and believing in you

To guide my life and get me through

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